I'm sorry :(

[Hawky]

*sigh* Ok.

I feel like a total jerk for basically stringing you along for the past few weeks, posting here and there, but basically being gone with not much explanation or even signing on. So I've come to a conclusion that sucks, but has to be done.

I'm leaving Taragoff Park.

I'm really sorry, especially to Raven and Dark, who have always been so nice to me, and welcomed me from the beginning, over a year ago. And especially to Raven because I'm taking Hawkshadow away from Phantomsun . I really would stay, but I feel like I've lost muse for all my RP sites. Last month my best friend died, and I haven't written much since. She was one of the reasons I ever even started RPing, and now I feel like all the muse has gone out of me. I feel horrible, because I'm abandoning my leader position that I worked so hard for, and now it will be yet another spot in the clans that have to be replaced because we've lost so many people already. But I didn't want to leave like Fawksey and just up and never come back, I wanted to explain why I'm leaving. I'm really sorry, and I feel like a total jerk just leaving you guys like this, but I can't see any other way. This site will always be special to me, since it was my first RP board ever, and it's another reason why I was so hesitant to simply leave. I'll miss you a ton, miss RPing here, but I after trying to 'wait it out', hoping any speck of muse came back to me, I've given up. It's just not as fun as it was anymore, more like a chore than anything. My reason for writing is gone, and my muse with her. So I'm really sorry that I'm just leaving you with nothing, I wish I could stay, but I can't. I wish you all good luck with the site, and hope that you are as at home as I was for the last year.

Love you all

♥ Hawky

[Wazo]

Well I am very sorry to hear your decision because everyone here will miss you very much. But I respect it and if this is what you feel you need to do, I stand behind you.

feel free to come back and visit to check it out or let us know how you are doing

we will miss you lots!

<3 Wazo

[Diamond]

Oh Hawky...I'm so sorry this had to happen to you. I really hope you get to feeling better soon. I'm sad that your leaving the site...I never got to know you as well X.x'. (Not long ago my life was hectic and I was absent from here a lot^^'. ) I believe time heals all wounds, ...so I hope your's are healed soon.

But yes, please do come back and vist us once you start feeling better^^.

We'll miss you, greatly.

~ Diamond.

[__ S K Y E]

Awww, I'm sorry Hawky. I never got to really know you all that well, but from what I gathered you were - and still are - a fantastic person and an even greater roleplayer. I hope that one day your wounds will heal - hopefully soon - and you'll come back to take a peek once they do. <3

I know we'll all miss you.

~ Skyluff. <33

_{P.S. I can't help wondering, though. What's going to happen to your characters?}

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[D a R K - R a H]

0.0
I honestly don't know what to say.
This is such a surprise... Such a painful blow...
I don't know if you'll come back to read our responses, but I miss you already.

I can't possibly relate to the pain of losing someone very close to you, but I know what it's like to have the pain of everyday life block out all hope and muse.
Like Diamond, I hope time'll help heal your achings.

Know that we'll always care, and that there'll always be a place for you here if you find that things have changed.

I think we'll have somone else play Redstar for now. That way we don't have another leader randomly dying. We'll have Snake kill him off or something...

[Stormeh]

I'm so sorry, Hawky... =/ I never knew that you were having problems
because your friend died... I'm greatly sorry for your loss. I truly am.

And I, like everyone else here, hope that you will find it in you to at
least visit us every once in a while if you can. We'll all miss you terribly,
and we'll welcome you back with open arms if you ever return.
*huggles* Best of luck to you with whatever you're off to now.

[Raven-chan]

I don't know what to say. This...this is hard for me, because you all are really good friends of mine. I don't think you realize it, but I don't have many friends here. I mean, when people ask me who my best friends are I think of you. (I know, I know....you all think I'm pathetic...) But it's true...

Hawky, I love you very much. You are a fantastic person and I'm very sorry for your loss, but God will heal your wounds, because He loves you and cares for you very much. Just trust in Him. I'm sorry about your loss.

I'll miss you- we'll all miss you so much, Hawky. May God bless you for the rest of your days...*huggle* So long, farewell, auvedershein(sp?) good-bye! *tearsob*

[Hawky]

I'll miss you guys too, and that's fine that someone RP's Redstar. I didn't really RP any of my other charries too much lately, the only other active cat I had being Hawkshadow. So none of the other ones really make that much of a difference. I was thinking though, that Raven? Maybe Hawkshadow could be killed by one of the Soldiers, but Phantomsun was still going to have those kits that we were talking about? Because then Phantomsun will always have a part of Hawkshadow, and she isn't just left on her own again, cause i luff her and I don't want her to be super sad again . I'll try and come back to check in on you guys as much as I can, I'm going to be leaving for a week soon so I won't be around much for the next two weeks, getting ready and such. I just really need some time away, to think. Especially since I lost my best friend before when I was seven to Leukemia, and it's just completely torn open old wounds, so time away from everything is just really appealing right now. Again, I'm really sorry, and I'll miss you all, just...nothing seems right anymore, especially my writing. Hopefully it'll come back soon, but until then, I'm putting down my pad and paper. I'll def. come back to visit you guys though.

[D a R K - R a H]

<sup>That's good to hear, Hawky. Enjoy your vacation!

OMG! Yes! Phantomsun/star having kits right now would be TOTALLY awesome! Especially since she's about to become the leader. She should find out right after she returns from the Far Shore. <33</sup>